I'm celebrating 500 followers on instagram!
I am sitting here feeling so overwhelmed. I am humbled. I am thankful. I am honored that so many of you have followed me in this journey and trusted me with your stories.
I have dreamed about starting a food blog for as long as I can remember, or at least since 2009 when I saw Julie & Julia for the first time. I had tossed the idea around for a few years, but couldn’t get serious about it until I had a kitchen of my own to work out of. I made an Instagram account for a food blog last Christmas, but I kept it a secret. I didn’t tell anyone and didn’t post anything.
It wasn’t until this May when I finally got the courage to chase this silly little dream of mine. I finally gave the account a real name and bought a website domain. I was planning on just sharing some of my favorite recipes I had whipped up throughout quarantine. It was supposed to be a fun little hobby – that’s it.
I’m not exactly sure when things switched for me or why I felt so strongly about sharing my experiences with an eating disorder with you all. In fact, looking back I am surprised I had the courage to do that. It was very out of character for me.
I suppose I was just sick of it. I was sick of feeling alone. I was over living ashamed of something I struggled with when I knew there had to be other people out there going through similar things to me. It drove me crazy feeling like I had to keep everything bottled up inside of me. I suppose I was hit with a momentary burst of courage and pressed publish on this post.
The responses I received were astounding. I have heard from people all over the world (not an exaggeration). The more I’ve shared about my own lived experiences, the more I have had the honor and privilege of hearing your on stories as well.
I simply could not be more thankful. In the grand scheme of Instagram food bloggers, having 500 followers probably isn’t a big deal at all. And that’s okay. Because at the end of the day, I don’t really want to be a famous food blogger. Don’t get me wrong, it would definitely be fun. That certainly isn’t my goal anymore.
What started as a quarantine hobby has grown into something that gives me passion and purpose. Yellow Apron has pushed me further along in my recovery. I’m celebrating 500 followers today because this time last year I wasn’t willing to admit to myself I had an eating disorder. I’m celebrating 500 followers because baking is joyful for me again. I’m celebrating 500 followers because I never imagined I would have come this far when I started this back in May. I’m celebrating 500 followers because I am inspired and encouraged each and everyday to press on in my recovery because of you all. I’m celebrating 500 followers because this feels like the most genuine and brave thing I’ve ever done.
My biggest hope and dream for Yellow Apron Kitchen is to create a space where people don’t feel alone. I hope to encourage people to have the hard conversations about mental health. I want people to know that they are loved and wanted and known, despite having struggles that they might not feel comfortable talking about yet. I want to encourage people to be more open, seek help when needed, and know that it’s okay. And if someone happens to make a yummy recipe or two of mine away, that what be the cherry on top!
So thank you, for following along with me and making my dreams come true. Thank you for stirring up new dreams inside of me. Your support means more to me than you’ll ever know.